Monday, July 30, 2018

The (more) longest year ever 2018

Last year I wrote a blog post entry about the longest year of 2017. I thought that the toughest year of my life has passed. I was totally wrong. Apparently 2018 has managed to become the longest year ever for me by far!

January 2018 feels like a light years ago. I have already expected 2018 is going to be a tough year for me because for the first time ever I am on my own. Stand on my own two feet to design the life that I dream of for so long. I thought that it is going to move a little bit slower than 2017. 

In an instant my life changed forever and I am not longer a wife. I am a divorced single woman with four kids to take care off on my own. I am not going to lie, it's a little bit scary and exciting all at the same time. There are a lot of things I need to think and decide for myself.


Here are some random stuffs that has happened and happening in my life right now

- My divorced was finalised in January 2018 
- I was officially on my own since that day. I have no idea how I am going to live my life but I know and I believe that I am going to be okay
- I have to hunt for a new place to live because my ex husband wanted the house for himself even though that house belong to both of us
- I decided to travel to Blakan with my ex boss. I wanted to see the world and experience life on my own. I thought I was going to feel sad and lonely but I was wrong. That was definitely the best fourteen days of life. Meeting new people and going to a new place definitely changed things for me.
- I meet Nihad our Bosnian tourist guide. Meeting him was definitely the best thing that has ever happened to me! I was happy and I just can't stop smiling. If it's up to me I wanted to stay there for as long as possible
- I got mugged in Montenegro. I was so shocked by the experience. It's definitely a lesson learned for me. Never take for granted my belongings
- After my Balkan trip I was left with this emptiness inside. I need to be around people and I need to connect with people. Suddenly I don't know how to be by myself
- I discovered The Secret ( The Law of Attraction)  and this law totally changed my life!
- The General Election 14 in Malaysia was definitely changed things for everybody! For the first time ever the opponent become the government of the day and the government become the opponent. Wow! 
- My ministry ( Natural Resource and Environment) is no longer exist. Now we become Ministry of Water, Land and Natural Resource. So many changes at work that I need to deal with.
- I moved to a new house in Putrajaya with my kids. Instead of fighting for a house that feels like hell, I choose peace of my anytime.
- I tried for the first time to moved my stuffs and furnitures from our old house to the new house
- Practicing gratitude with the magic is one of the tools that helps me to heal my heart and open my heart and mind to a new relationship
- I am obsessed with self help books and audiobooks. I just can't stop reading. I even read new adult romance genre. I like feeling love again
- Then I registered at one of finding jodoh site to meet new people. I always meet unavailable men and I just want to break the cycle.
- I meet some interesting people online
- I went out on a date for the first time in the longest time ever
- I experience love at first sight! I love the feeling of love. It's the best thing in the world. I hope this feeling will last. I meet my soulmate!
- I drove a car to Kuantan by myself for the first time ever. I have never done anything like this before. I am so proud of myself for facing my fear.
- I meet the Minister of Ministry of Youth and Sport at KBS GYM and selfie with him. This was definitely the highlight of my week!
- I am slowly easing into a normal and boring life but I don't think I can settle for boring. I have so much love and energy in me to just settle.
- Now I am obsess with vibration, energy and self love. I need to be in the presence of love to attract love. Live in abundance has now become my words to live by for the month.

Wow! I can't believed all of these happened and are happening in 2018. I am hoping and praying that the next few months will be a great month for me. I need to practice living as if all of my desire already here. Be in a happy state and be thankful.

2018 here I come and I am going to make the rest of the year the best year ever!

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